No revolution starts with begging

And I don't like to beg - outside the bedroom. 😉

So this message is quite hard for me to write.

And even worse - today - as we just welcomed the 15th member of our exclusive club here! 🥳

But after another failed attempt I guess I have to sit on my cuck chair and beg. For your support. What happened? I attempted again set up tiers here to grant tailored access to my content with the integrated payment processor Stripe. And during the setup - a known feeling from the last weeks arised: being censored. By them. And worst: by myself.

If you followed my story you might know that the idea for a special place where we talk about the psychology of cuckolding, about its pleasures and challenges was born on Patreon. Surprised by the wonderful support of many guys this project felt like it was really about to take off.

Until I found a mail in my inbox.

My account was suspended. For a message in a private chat (about how to create NFSW-pics with AI). I appealed. I got rejected. I could have waited for two months (at least) and apply to re-open with a new account, explaining them beforehand what I plan to do. You can imagine that this was not an option for me.

So I began to search for alternatives. And hit many walls. I signed up for Fansly and Fanvue (even with ID-Validation) only to find out that there is no editing for a text. Their content are pictures and videos with captions. So one day I decided (with the help of Gemini) to host this project myself. I have never done that. I rented a server. I set up an open source instance called Ghost. I integrated a mail-provider via the console of the server. Imagine a hacker in a movie. That's how my screen looked in the past weeks.

As you can see I was able to set everything up. This morning I even managed to secure the server from password-brut-force attacks by creating a SSH-key on my computer and order the server to only accept that as an entrance allowance. I didn't even knew that these things exist until yesterday. I really grew in the past days.

But - where I fail - is to set up a possibility to get paid. And I'll be frank with you about it: I want to get paid. I don't want to ask for a favour. It is a question of energy. Like a cuck feels it if his husband is only sleeping with another guy, or if he's cucking him. There is a difference. And I think this difference is important. Because this is an important work. That deserves a balance. And it's a question of sovereignty - which I want with this project.

But how?

To sum up my efforts:

• one Provider said "no", after I explained my idea broadly
• one said "maybe, if you stick to our guidelines" (which included "no adult content")
• and for Paypal and Stripe sexual content is a violation and I would risk being banned again. With being marked. And they even monitor the traffic and the source it comes from. And now look at my social media profile. You can imagine what would have happened.
• therefore Substack with Stripe integrated was out too.
• And a funny thing: there are payment processors for "high risk" content. But did you know that many banks shut down accounts which recieve payments via these companies? They call it "reputational damage".

And here we're going back to the start: During this time I started to clean up my blog here. I choose pictures with clothed guys. I changed words. I said "compersion" when I meant "cuckolding". It wasn't a "Gay Kink" – it was an "LGBTQ+-related community topic".

And maybe that would have helped me to pass the algorithmic and human checks.

But I would have had constantly the underlying fear of being banned again.

And you know what?

I am not ready to take one more rejection because of who I am and what I love. I don't want to apply for approval anymore.

Cuckolding isn't a bad thing.

And I don’t want to sanitize my ideas, my pictures, and my language just to signal to some corporate bot that I’m 'safe'.

That’s why you see me proudly sitting on my cuck chair today—not begging, but kindly asking for your support. Because this place consumes time, money, and energy. But I believe it’s worth it.

I’ve built a bridge on Ko-Fi — a place where you can stand with me

If you consider to support me, I would like to introduce you to my original logic

• Free Membership - the weekly start with one idea to think about.
• Tier 1 (5 €) was for Observers - curious about the topic and they got the Deep Dives.
• Tier 2 (15 €) was for Practicioners - guys and couples ready to explore it. They got the Protocols: PDFs with clear and structured communication guidlines and excerises to define, test and maybe broaden their boundaries.
• Tier 3 (30 €) was for Cucks. They just paid double. So others could have all the fun. Totally unfair. So that was the right option for them. 😉 (And sometimes, when I was in the mood, they got some extra tasks, just because they are cucks. 😊)

You see, I've thought this through. But until today I didn't find a solution to set this up - without censoring me. So this blog is my "Fuck you" to the big companies. And my revolution. Cause I have never done such thing before.

I still haven't given up on the idea of implementing an easy payment system — for both of us. I’m still searching for the right solution. In the meantime, if you choose to support me, I would be very, very grateful. ♥️

Strategic Note: If you send me a comment on Ko-FI, please use neutral words like "Great work" in your message. You know - the bots and algorithms. Thank you for your discretion! 😉

Looking forward to our journey.

And once again: Thank You! From the bottom of my ♥️.

Kindly yours

A.